Tag Archive: Depression


It’s really challenging dealing with fatigue.  It’s not a symptom that’s obvious on the exterior.  I can fake feeling good in public, but the feelings of inadequacy that gather internally become evident after a short while.  Emotionally, it’s a huge drain trying to keep things going while every muscle feels twice its weight and your shoulders slope forward out of weakness.  I had a doctor once tell me fatigue causes your body to fold in on itself.   I felt like a flower at the end of its life; each petal curling inward.

I think that’s the trouble with fatigue – the failure to see improvements after a few days, makes the sufferer very weary of getting up in the morning.  And this feeds into a blanket of depression feeding the fatigue.  Erick was my hero- taking me out to the park last evening as way for me to reconnect with nature.  I was still tired, but immediately I noticed an improvement in my outlook.  Today is much improved and I’m realizing the importance of finding ways to cope with stress.  One of the driving factors in my three horrible days was my inability to cope with any of it accompanied by my stubbornness in acknowledging how just bad I felt.  

It’s hard going through treatments for cancer, and some of the lasting effects are equally as difficult to manage.  I think the key is to know how to manage stress – what brings pleasure into your life?  What allows you to relax and heal?  And remembering it takes real strength (not the physical kind) to recognize what needs to be fixed and to set out for a solution.  There’s nothing weak about that.

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Fueling the argument

I’m 29 years old. I purchased my first gallon of gas for around $0.79 at age 16. Ten years later, I was paying $2.49/gallon. Today, a gallon of gasoline (regular unleaded) is $4.18 at the pump; a 430% increase over my first gallon.

Some get mad at the price. They point fingers at oil companies making record profits or at President Bush (the worst president ever) and his oil buddies or they blame the war. And they (we) should be angry, but what really angers me is the feeling that we’ll allow this rise in prices to continue unabated until our country bursts at the seams with inflation. The oil companies have a hand in everything we do from driving to work to taking a much-needed, well-deserved vacation. We had a choice in the 1970s when we saw the first dramatic spike in oil, but we sat idling in the great parking-lots of centers of energy and policy. And we have the same choice today, but for some reason, the technologies are slow-moving. Why are hybrids still too costly for the lower middle class? What does it mean when in America, the cost of driving to work, does not warrant the job itself? And today there’s more at stake than just the price of gas, we must consider also the cost of driving. What impact will current and future technologies have on our environment and well-being? So I’m not just frustrated with big oil, I’m frustrated with us. We’re not the only country in the world importing oil, but we a great country on the fragile brink of economic collapse because of a severe lack of foresight.

I’m asking now for those readers who do not normally comment, to consider posting ideas for free-energy, education, the economy, etc. We don’t need to fuel the argument; we need to power a solution.